Silenced Insecurities

I’m sorry i haven’t written much lately,life has been busy and I haven’t had enough time for blogging.

To start out…
I’m teaching myself how to play guitar,well…my friend Cassie is helping me alot.haha
I can play 3 whole songs….well two and a half. But I’ve only been playing for two weeks. I think my parents are getting sick of hearing Gateway Worship all of the time.
I’m determined to learn how to play “Brandy Alexander” by Feist.
i love feist.
My weekend was filled with working concession stands at our softball field and taking action shots for some parents. I’m exhausted.
i’m also aggravated at the fact that my computer won’t upload those actions shots. i need a laptop just for my photography.
I’ve been craving a new lens,but money has to be used for more important things and i’m just going to have to learn how to deal with that.

i have forgiven. And it honestly feels good. I told myself over and over that i had forgiven that person,when i knew for a fact that i didn’t.
Now all i am trying to do is love. Which can be harder than it appears. Love,love,love,love.. I think it’s one of my favorite words..which for most people isn’t very original.
But we not only have to look at the word,but we have to say it,feel it, give it, and experience it to the fullest extent and once we have done this,than we will truly appreciate such a simple word.

Our power went off today and i loved it. I sat at my window,played guitar,and watched the rain pour down.It was such a beautiful experience.
It’s like when the power went off,all the worries went away and all i could hear was either rain or complete silence.I was so thankful not to have a tv blasting in my ear.

I enjoyed today. i sat on the couch with my mother and we talked about my great-grandmother and how my Mom is so much like her.

i would really like to have a sit-down conversation. I’m busy,but not the kind of busy i want to be and I’m learning to appreciate time and having alot of it.

I’m a weirdo and i love it. Someone said to me today “hannah,out of all of the people i know you are the less poser-like of them all. you are different and i love that.”
My heart was so delighted when i heard those words. It was kind of a reminder that even though i feel like i’m just another kid, there’s a pretty good chance i could tick those other kids off with my crazy beliefs. And that is very satisfying :]